If possible, I find my interactions with the opposite sex simultaneously increasingly difficult and freeing as I get older.
I'm becoming more confident in who I am as a woman and as a person, a person created in God's image with a lot to offer this world and a whole lot more to learn. However, I am still very much a single woman whose desire is to be married and have children. To be loved by someone and to love in return.
Last fall I wrote a blog titled "A Life Worth Living" and it has been a wonderful journey to accomplish things in life that I want to do and to not wait around.
HOWEVER, conversations with one particular member of the male population has got me 'flipped-turned upside down' (in the words of one Fresh Prince of Bel-Air). He says he's not interested and yet we talk almost every night for an hour or more. I know, I'm a girl and I over-analyze EVERYTHING,
I sometimes think it would be easier if I just didn't talk to him anymore. But then I remember how much fun I have with him and how relaxed I am around him and that we can talk about anything. I enjoy his friendship but dangnabit, I wish he'd be clear with his intentions.
As long as he's single and talking to me, I'm going to make the very selfish assumption that it's because he's interested in me. I try talking myself out of it, but no luck.
Some of my girlfriends are super giddy with me and others are entirely reserved and yet others, aren't sure how to respond because they want to help me guard my heart. My request: PRAY. and to the one who is able - smack him!!!