According to Stats Canada the average age of marriage for women is about 31. When I was a little girl and a teenager and going to college I couldn't have fathomed not being married by 25. Truthfully my goal was to be married by 23, starting a family by 25.
It's not that I feel incomplete (like I used to) or that I'm missing out, I just desire so deeply to give of myself completely to someone. For instance, cooking and cleaning loses it's appeal when it's just for me. I will forego meals so that I can afford something more expensive, to have friends over. I just rather do things for others, I feel ridiculous cooking a meal for myself, or scrubbing the toilet every couple days, or even vacuuming. If I know it's for someone else's benefit, I'm happy to do it. (despite all my complaining in high school about having to do the dishes...)
Today a large group of friends are at a wedding for a couple from their church, who are about 21. I'm excited for them, they're a great couple and they deserve this, really I do believe that.
Maybe I'm weird (okay, don't answer that), but every time I meet a guy I check for a wedding band and then daydream about what it would be like to be with him. Seriously, it's to the point of obsession. I don't mean to do it, but just today I met someone while working at the church property and before I could stop myself I was thinking "hmm, if he's a twin, would that mean he would have twins or would it skip a generation? I'd love to have twins!" GAH! Pretty sure most guys won't want to talk to me after reading this post ... Men: I'm sorry, I don't do it on purpose, promise.
That may seem funny, but it bothers me. Because as soon as I realize a guy is single, my body language changes, my attitude towards the person, my questions are geared differently. I'd rather be blind and treat people equally. Pretend they're all married, dangit.
So that's me today. sigh.