I would like to know what the HELL managers do in an office. Would someone please tell me???
Today I have:
-provided training to our peer mentors in the absence of the scheduled trainer
-once the scheduled trainer arrived and less than graciously relieved me of my duties, I played gopher all day as I retrieved documents, set up the training room and tried (albeit, unsuccessfully) to work out an IT problem
-continued to schedule my boss' appointments (I kinda like that part)
-worked on a webpage that is years of education beyond my capacity
-listened as someone else got credit for the work I did
I HATE WORK RIGHT NOW.
oh, and I haven't taken a lunch break and I'm here until 8:30 tonight...nearly 12 hours and hardly a break, but a lot of running around.
Now I really need to take the time to consider the things that have gone well today:
-the trainer was in a car accident (and no, that's NOT the good part), and was not hurt
-my boss has given me the responsibility of scheduling her appointments and providing her with the assistance she (really) needs
-the web design disaster has taught me that I should NEVER take a job if it asks for even the remotest amount of web knowledge
-one of our counsellors gave me the credit for doing the work for the training program, after she was wrongly thanked (don't get me wrong-I appreciated having her there...it's just I did the work).
Boy, I sound bitter. I'm just angry. And stressed. I don't want to work anymore...I've taken so little time off work this summer that I don't even feel like I had one, except for the long weekend at the cottage. I'm working until next Tuesday, taking three days, then we have a long weekend and I'm back at:
1) school, full-time
2) college job, 15-24 hours a week
3) Sobeys, 10-15 hours a week
How do people do it? I really want to give up...like never before. I regret asking for more hours at the college, because if they just keep paying me $8.65 then it won't be worth it once I'm up to $9 @ Sobeys.
Although...there is REALLY good news in all this...I did get hired as a computerized notetaker which makes more than $22/hour!!! The only reason I've hesitated telling anyone, is that I'm not actually guaranteed any hours yet-and we don't know if I'll ever get them. Depending on my timetable, student's needs, and other factors, I may not actually get any hours-but at least I should be thankful I was a 'successful candidate'.
Oh and I have planning to do for the I AM COMING campaign and the MCF for the fall...I'm contemplating just taking a break from it all...Maybe not such a bad idea.
I want to scream
But I keep it all inside
Afraid that someone might see
See that I need help
I want to
No I need to scream
But instead I sit here
Tears rolling down
Smile as they walk by
Will anyone see
No they're too consumed
Consumed with their own lives
I need to scream
To let it all out
To let go of all that consumes me
Promises I can't keep
The burden is weighing down
All that is left is nothing
No longer consumed
Tears rolling down
N.D. Aug 22/07