Friday, June 09, 2006

i'm home!!

I am FAR too addicted to my computer. In the two weeks I didn't have it I used the internet at three different places...(thank you Megz & Wendy and Terry Berry Hairy Fairy library...). That may not seem like a lot, and I probably would've tried to use it more if I'd had time, but I didn't. But its depressing to me that I couldn't even go 2 weeks without my computer. Pathetic. I'm trying to limit how much I'm on here, think I'll do okay. I just mostly missed it for updating this (so many things have happened) and having music to listen to!! (I think I've heard every country song there is to hear...a lot!<--CMT was my friend).
So what are all the 'many things'? I wrote briefly about a few, but here goes...I discovered the laundromat about a 15 minute bus ride from my house, or an hour's walk. Fun!! I loaded up my green backpacking bag with three loads of laundry, soap, reading material and lots of coins to find the laundromat. Hatem (boss from Subway) ended up giving me a ride there :) and then I walked home. Pray tell, how did I ever plan on backpacking around Europe? I was only fooling myself, wasn't I? You all knew I'd never make it. Ridiculous-ness. So that was an adventure, next time though, no flip flops!
Also, last Saturday I had my dessert party!! I made 10 different desserts and little take home gifts with little recipe books (thanks Laura!) and had 20 people come over! We played games (Things!!-thanks Jo) :) and watched Natalie-baby's are a good source of entertainment. Sometimes, so are grown men. Alby ;) It was Albert's birthday so I made him a birthday cake with the new silicon round cake pan my mom sent me! :) Thanks Mami! And now I have 5 bottles of opened pop to drink. Soooo much.
Oh! Last Friday I went to the LeaKer's for dinner! Kyle was at camp so I was invited ;). Sucks that although we're friends that awkwardness is still there. Well, guess I shouldn't of dated him. Or told him I liked him. Or started liking him. But I did. Anyways, dinner!! It was really nice and then after, Mr LeaKer came over and hung up my blinds in my room! SWEET! So I can actually sleep past the crack of dawn.
Sleep is what I did on Sunday (after the dessert party). I woke up at 8:15, decided I wasn't ready to get up...woke up at 12:30 in the afternoon!!! EEP. I spent 15 minutes walking back and forth in my apartment checking my clocks in a daze that I could've slept that long. lol.
When I went to the library I picked up a book on sign language! I've been learning some new phrases (Why didn't you eat last night? for example) and some of the rules of signing. I'm very excited. I totally want to look into taking a class on it, and a bunch of people are interested. Score! :)
I got a raise at Subway!! That's my third raise! Isn't that awesome? I'm also getting an extra hour tacked onto my shift at least once a week for different reasons, so bringing in some more money which is good. And my hours at Sobey's are picking up. It's really wearing me down though. This morning I slept until 8:19 (well I kept climbing back into bed for just *5 more minutes*), when I started work at Subway at 8:30 (I was on time), because I was just so tired. Yesterday I worked 8-5 at Subway and then 6:45-11:30 at Sobeys. It wouldn't be so bad if I could sit down, but I can't. It was pretty hard. I'm getting better at it, not crying from exhaustion anymore. Close to it a lot of the time, but haven't cried over it for a while.
I'm sure my last two weeks must've been more adventurous than just that mundane work stuff? Surely! Maybe not. I've been experiencing lots of emotional ups and downs. I'm enjoying reading my Bible more lately. Reading all about the early church in Acts and studying Ephesians with our Bible study; also slowly reading through Genesis as a personal study. Working on my feelings for Kyle. I'll be fine one day and missing him the next. But I think I'm getting to the point where I'm almost relieved to not be with him, because I know its not what God wants. I think right now God just wants me. And that's cool. There's a country song that goes "I don't want any man I can live with, I want a man I can't live without". Yes, that's true. But right now, that *man* needs to be God. How cool is it that the creator of the universe, knowing all my faults and how I'll inevitably disappoint him, daily even, still loves me unconditionally and wants to know ME personally? Amazing. I feel like the luckiest girl on earth! And I know that one day God will bring me a husband that will make me feel like that too...but not until we're both ready. And I know I shouldn't, but I can't help but dream about how great this guy is going to be, because God knows what I desire and also what I need...and will bless me. Matthew 7:11 says, "If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him!" Maybe that's not the best verse to illustrate my point, then again, maybe it is...but God is going to bless me and each of his children beyond anything we could fathom. Don't you want to experience that?? How cool is our God!? See, this is one of those emotional 'ups' I was talking about. ;)
Wow this is getting far too long. I'm going to go to bed, have to be at work in 12 hours. woot. For once though, I have a Saturday night off. Probably stay at home and clean for company on Sunday. Laundry is done for another week!! Now the shirts are all drying on my kitchen chairs and in my bathroom. I'm glad I don't let my place get too dirty, I don't like a big overhaul clean. Ok...bedtime. Love you all and have missed you muchly!!
Love Niki


  1. I'm glad you're back! XOXOXO

  2. so what happened to your computer? is it okay? I'm very concerned about this. Oh, and, um, glad things are going good, i guess.
    Seriously, take care of that computer...

  3. yeah take care of the computer how am i suppose to communitcate with my friend that lives in the "armpit of Ontairo" (quoted from my manager he says hamilton is the armpit of ontairo) lol well i'm gonna go see if your actually reachable by telephone nite nite