reluctance...acceptance

Do you ever have those 'a-ha' moments when it feels as though you're watching your life from the perspective of an outsider?

My job title changed on January 1, 2013 to "Social Media and Marketing Assistant". I was going to be a ballerina. Then I quickly realized that wasn't feasible (and I have terrible coordination), so I spent the next 20 years expecting I would become a teacher. Then I ran out of money. So I trained to be an executive assistant. I was a little disappointed when I was hired as a receptionist, but I grew and mastered that role. Then, I was hired as admin support (a fancy title for...receptionist), and was disappointed. By God's providence I was in the right place at the right time and moved from general admin support to admin support for the marketing director. I began to move up, and I've been here for nearly 3 years and am now a Social Media & Marketing Assistant, although I never studied marketing and social media is just something I do in my spare time.

There was a great job posting out in the country that I would have loved to have, but I didn't feel peace about leaving and I was pleased to learn that a sweet friend of mine got the job. People keep sending me job postings for social media jobs and I keep ignoring them. In the last year I have become an administrator for 4 facebook pages and 1 linkedin page, as well as training people - at work and in my personal life, on social media platforms.

Since I let go of my dream of becoming a teacher, I have seen my life morph in many areas and now find myself doing something I never expected. I latched onto the idea of working for a not-for-profit, but never thought it would be feasible. Now, I run an annual event that has grown exponentially - we're now running a secondary event to offset the costs (see here for information about our Vendor Marketplace), I'm helping organize other charities' events and I feel like I've given lip service for years to my desire to work in the not-for-profit world, but I've never jumped in. I think that before I know it, something's got to give and I'm going to end up in the NFP sector, either by my own choice or something completely out of my control.

I can't explain it, but it seems inevitable.

I'm curious to see what the next months and years will bring. Maybe it'll be nothing. But then again, maybe it'll be something amazing.