Monday, July 14, 2008

wondering why?

It would seem that God knows when I need him most, because he gets me up early to read Scriptures and pray in preparation of a day I would hardly make it through otherwise.

This morning started off great, a beautiful Monday morning after a great weekend of camping and feeling pretty rested. Even with the news of the house for sale, things seemed to be going alright. I spent an awesome morning with God praying through friends and relationships and different situations, it was a good start to the day.

At about 8:20 this morning I had a nagging feeling that my grandfather wasn't okay and almost cried, although I didn't know why. I knew my grandfather was sick as he moved into a care home a few weeks ago, but I didn't know how sick. When I came home from work tonight I got the following message from my mom "I got a call from Switzerland, please call me". My fingers were trembling and tears were streaming down my face when I finally got a hold of my mom all I could say was "Grossvati died, didn't he?" The rest of tonight is pretty much a blur.

Too much is going on that I just wouldn't be able to handle if I did not believe in God as my comfort. I'm really in shock and I just don't know what to do or say or think. Right about now I would like a break from it all.

3 comments:

  1. Niki,
    Sorry to hear about your loss. Please know that you and your family are in our prayers.
    If you need to talk, or get out just call me please. I am here for you!
    Hugs

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  2. I am sorry for your loss.
    Family has a certain connection that can't be explained only felt.

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