Monday, July 14, 2008

wondering why?

It would seem that God knows when I need him most, because he gets me up early to read Scriptures and pray in preparation of a day I would hardly make it through otherwise.

This morning started off great, a beautiful Monday morning after a great weekend of camping and feeling pretty rested. Even with the news of the house for sale, things seemed to be going alright. I spent an awesome morning with God praying through friends and relationships and different situations, it was a good start to the day.

At about 8:20 this morning I had a nagging feeling that my grandfather wasn't okay and almost cried, although I didn't know why. I knew my grandfather was sick as he moved into a care home a few weeks ago, but I didn't know how sick. When I came home from work tonight I got the following message from my mom "I got a call from Switzerland, please call me". My fingers were trembling and tears were streaming down my face when I finally got a hold of my mom all I could say was "Grossvati died, didn't he?" The rest of tonight is pretty much a blur.

Too much is going on that I just wouldn't be able to handle if I did not believe in God as my comfort. I'm really in shock and I just don't know what to do or say or think. Right about now I would like a break from it all.


  1. Niki,
    Sorry to hear about your loss. Please know that you and your family are in our prayers.
    If you need to talk, or get out just call me please. I am here for you!

  2. Thinking of you, dear.

  3. I am sorry for your loss.
    Family has a certain connection that can't be explained only felt.